To my dearest, sweetest and craziest best friend I'd ever known.
Its been a hell of 8 years since I've known you, and really, this month marks the first time that I met the bulat-tudung-faced you when we first set foot in SSP.
I didn't like you the first time I saw you. I was just jealous that, even though you were the new girl, you were still liked by the first intakes. As for me, although I'm loud and I talk a lot, it takes time for me to warm up with people, and we got closer when we both our desk mates won't talk to us. How time flies huh for us.
Somehow, after the infamous fight that we had, I missed you terribly. I mean, who would wait for me (who takes so long to bersiap and pakai tudung) and won't even complain. Dahlah despite me being so peramah, most people don't really stick by me since I'm hard to understand. But you did Fatin, and I am forever indebted towards you.
Since you had been so near for the last 7 years, mid 2015 had been a challenging year for me in UM. I think I just feel my self-confidence deteriorating and the fact that I don't want to make new friends had been my constant challenge. And there's the fact that we're separated miles apart and it made me harder to adjust to a surrounding where most of my SSP friends are not around. I missed you a lot, since whenever I had a hard time in PALAM, i can always adjust a time to meet you at the cafeteria, or just melepak in your room.
I once imagined myself losing you, and boy how bad I cried that very day. You're like my other half who understands me even though I sometimes can't even comprehend myself. You're liked by many and not socially awkward and people like being friends with you. As for me, not everyone understands me as I have this tendency to become really mean to someone I cherish. I am specially mean to you, but you know how hard it is for me to express me feelings, right? haahhhahaha. I'm just not that kind of girl that can constantly say I love you and I miss you even though i feel it every day.
I know, university life had us separated by miles and theres the fact that we're busy with our own lives. but I hope, that we will still make time for each other. I suck at long-distance since I miss you everyday, but you know thats what best friends are, eh? You don't have to constantly be with me, but I know whenever I needed you, You'd ALWAYS and ALWAYS make time for me.
I thank you Fatin,
for always listening to my rants and stories
for forcing me to cry when i couldn't
for always asking if i'm okay
for always sticking by me be it hell or high water
for accepting my flaws and loving me
and for always being my best friend, sister and soul mate
I can never replace you Fatin, nor can I ever unloved you because you're not just one in a million, there's no other Fatin Nur Syahirah Bt Fadhil in this world then you.
Happy Birthday Fatin, and I pray that you'd always be cherished by your loved ones, and that Allah will always bless you with the best blessings He could ever grant His hamba. I pray that our friendship will last till jannah and I would never have to lose you again, because losing you had scarred me for life.
" You're like the sunshine that fills my dark heart with warmth
Shining brightly as it melts down the dreadful cold
You're like the stars up high
Filling up the vast skies with brightness
Although may not be seen, it is always there
And thats what a real best friend is
One though whose not there at all times, but is always there when you needed it.
And I for one am thankful for the Lord
For He has granted me with
A soulmate thee. "
