Freedom.
i've never felt that for a very long time.
until the day that i joined a summit that i attend last week.
there's a reason why i really missed that summit.
well, several reasons actually.
but, i'm concentrating on the one thing that i really missed.
FREEDOM
i know, being a high school student is not an easy job.
let alone the ones who doesn't live at home.
during the whole week, i've felt free.
i don't have responsibilities, i don't have people's feelings to take care of.
i only have me and some of my friends in our own little world.
going back to that place means going back to reality.
my reality is holding responsibilities;
as a student, a leader, a sister and a daughter.
there's been lots of time when i just want to run away from everything.
it's impossible, but, hey, i'm still allowed to dream, right?
i hate the fact that i am stressed.
really, i just want to go somewhere quiet, a park maybe, or the seaside where i can just chill out and read my novels.
yes, the summit left a deep effect.
when i observe other people there, i see that people actually enjoyed their lives.
they don't dread what's going to happen tomorrow, or the day after tomorrow.
they don't even dread the present.
they enjoyed it like any normal teenager would.
yes, they're busy with whatever they're doing, but at least, they're happy.
the only time that i'm genuinely happy is the time when i get to spend time with my whole family, listen to my music, go for a strike or two at the bowling alley and when i started to get immersed with my novels.
i don't hate what i'm doing right now and most importantly i don't hate my life.
i'm just saying here that i'll miss all the moments where i can really feel the freedom.
ok, it's kinda late and i have to go back to my addmt and physics.
see ya. :)
