this is the reply for your post entitled a'fiani atiqah mohd nizam
firstly, i want to say, finally, you didn't block your blog anymore.
truthfully speaking, i was touched.
yes, i was.
fatin,
i never am perfect
i am not that nice.
and, i DON'T want you to be like me.
i appreciate and love you just the way you are.
you know what, being friends with you is like and adventure for me.
why?
because, you're the total opposite of me, and you know what, that's what made our friendship standing.
we were not that different, but in terms of perangai.
we're like the total opposite.
yes, my friend, i miss you like hell as well.
and, i know, i fell the awkwardness as well.
u don't know how much tears had fell during our big fight.
almost every night, i cried.
if i didn't cry in my sleep, i'll cry during solat.
and i know you cried as well
and seeing you cry that time at the surau, makes me sad.
and did you know, i was standing at the door for about 10 minutes, fighting with my ego and my heart.
either just to let you be or just just hug you.
but, i know, you won't like me there, so, i went, with my heart crying.
you know what, meeting you and being friends with you is the best thing that had ever happened to me
because, you just understand me without me saying.
i have tons of stories to tell you and like you i just don't know where to start.
fatin, seriously, how the hell i can let you go
when, eveytime you came to my dorm, deep down, i was wishing that you'd talk to me
i went out everytime you came in because, i know you'd never talk to me ever again
and that's the saddest part.
we will never talk again, and i can never call you again during the holidays.
sedih and what if i say i don't want to let go
and what if i say, i was blind to see that you actually cared for me, but you never really show it.
i know your way.
do you really want our friendship to end?
do you seriously want our friendship to end?
do you seriously, seriously want our friendship to end?
cause my answer is NO.
but, if you want to let go, i, i'll try to let you go.
lastly, i'm sorry.
i'm sorry that i started all of it.
i'm sorry that i've never been a good friend.
i'm sorry that i'm selfish.
i'm sorry for everything.
i'm sorry.
p/:s: you are a good friend. i'm the one who's a bad friend.
don't blame urself.
and you know what, i still want to be your bestfriend, even if you don't want to be my bestfriend.
in my heart je la. :D and thank u for the wish.
